11 days and counting

So with today being October 1, I have 11 days until my due date. Its hard to believe that its been almost 9 months (really 10 because its 40 weeks but…) Im very anxious. I went back to the doctor yesterday and he said I was dialted about a centimeter which is a start. Over the weekend I was in a frenzy… Cleaning everything!! I just had so much energy I didn’t know what to do with myself but today I feel crappy!! No other word to describe it. Im achey all over and so tired. I just dont feel well at all and I cant really describe how I feel just bad! Im not sure if it means anything of its just a combination of stress and so many things going on with little time to rest. People keep asking me question after question about being ready and excited but truthfully Im not excited. I am excited about being a mommy and seeing Kailey’s face for the first time but overall Im too exhausted to be excited, I just want her here in my arms! Im just tired. Brian tries to help, and it does but with my hormones so messed up his helping usually annoys me and makes me ill; which I hate to admit. Most women would love to have someone like him doing some of the wonderful things hes done for me and I just yell at him and take him for granted. I mean, he just traded in his car, his “baby”. The first car he owned, that he could call his and honestly say he earned becasue he was the one paying for it. Its gone, he watched “some old man” drive it away yesterday. He had to realize that there was no way a carseat was going to fit comfortably in his small 2 door car so he did the “adult” thing and traded it for a 4 door sedan. Granted, its an 08 model with over 50,000 less miles than his I know he loved that car and hes going miss it. I was so annoyed at the dealership because I felt Brian was being a picky baby over everything. The guys did a lot, helped us SOOOOO much in order to get us in this car and he was whining because it wasn’t what he wanted. I couldn’t stop and think about what he had just done long enough to appreciate it. Being almost 39 weeks pregnant has definitly taken its toll on me and Brian as well. So, any words of encouragement will be appreciated….