Warning: Graphic Content Ahead
2008, October 8I just want everyone to know that I may mention a few things that some may not want to read but for those who are interested I will tell the latest. I had my 39 weeks pregnant appointment yesterday morning. After telling me that I was about 3 centimeters dialated, he said he was going to strip my membranes (for those who dont know what that is I suggest GOOGLE). It was a horrible experience!! Very painful for a couple of hours but it did help me finally feel a contraction which turned out to be exactly what every woman has told me– like a PMS cramp! So far all contractions have been very irregular, some not painful at all and some very intense. I prayed hard last night for Kailey to come… I know her and God have it all worked out about when shes going to show her beautiful face but Im becoming impatient!! : ) And I dont think Im the only one. Everyone is a little. So this morning I got up and … while I choose not to say, somthing happened (too graphic) that I believe is another push from my body saying its almost time. At least I hope.
I know today somewhere around lunch time Nick has an appopintment in Chapel Hill. Brian talked to me about this last night and unknowingly made me feel a little upset. None of us know if Kailey is coming today or not but if she decides to come today I DO NOT want Nick to feel bad, like perhaps it was his fault that he and Robin couldn’t be there. Nor you Robin. You have to take care of Nick and Id rather have a precious baby and a healthy brother (in-law) than anything else. If by chance you’re not there physically when it happens I know you’ll be praying for Kailey and I and I will have you in my heart. Although, I dont think it will happen that quickly, I love you both no matter what.
So for now, we wait. I hate being stuck in this house just waiting but theres nothing else I can really do. But I do have comfort in knowing that if she doesn’t come soon, Monday morning somewhere around 5 am I will be induced, so Ill offically be a mommy within the next few days!
And for those who are wondering, we will be birthing at Heritage Hospital in Tarboro.
I’m glad Kailey decided not to come today for two reasons. She is going to be the most talked about baby for a long time. Her beautiful face is going to light up this community like never before. You have come so far and Brian has been so sweet about all of this. He is going to be one of the best daddy’s in the world. The hours are counting down and Kailey will come at the exact time God has planned for her. It won’t matter if it is 2 in the afternoon or 2 in the morning, you will be happy. I love you and Brian sooo much. You both have grown so much in the last year. Take each day at a time and ask God for guidance in every thing you do.Give each other a hug and kiss for me. Love you, grandmama.