A much needed update continued….Pictures

A much needed update

First of all, if there are any letters placed somewhere random or misspelled words or numbe4rs somewhere, Kailey is typing with me! The lastest on the Walters family since December:

Feb 14- 2 year anniversary and we moved to a big and more costly home

April 10- Kailey is 6 months old, almost 7 now

April 23- my dad fell and tore his ACL and has to have surgery

April 27- one year without my Uncle Harvey

May 7- last day of school for this semester!

Were good overall, could use some money if anyone has any to give to help! Kailey is growing up fast (yes, I know… I knew she would).

Brian is incredible. Ive been having a hard time with a few things lately and he has been right there by my side, I cant believe how lucky I got when we started dating, Oh, May 18 will be 5 years we’ve been together! And were still as strong as ever. Nothing or no one can come between us. I hope after about 6 months someone will still look at this. Hope everyone is doing well.

Newbies

Thought Id let you guys take a glance at some recent pictures

UGH…

So… Life after a baby… everything as far as Kailey goes everything is great. Shes a really good baby. Its just amazing how fast shes growing. The only issue that I am having is family. And I know the only people that read this is family and you’re wondering what the problem could be. I just feel like as much as everyone in the family loves Kailey, some people treat her almost like a toy to be looked at and passed around. I feel like nobody gives a damn about Brian or me anymore, all they care about seeing is Kailey and while I love the support, I am her mother, I went through 9 months of pregnancy and labor pain and nobody cares as long as they get to hold Kailey. I am not trying to be selfish at all but no one is thinking. Its 30 to 40 degrees outside, cold and flu season and the only thing everyone can think about is whether or not were going to be at their house for Thanksgiving so the family who have never seen her, or called or came by to check on any of us, can pass her around like a baby doll. I do not want her to be passed around with the germs and the people who obviously dont care or they would have at least called. I dont want her to get sick and while I know she will, I dont feel like passing her around will help prevent it any. And then theres people making huge deals out of nothing. Ok, Im at home all day by myself with a one month old and people expect me to always be able to answer the phone if they call and in case no one knows, it doesn’t always work that way. Not only do I have a baby, I have a home, school, and a husband, so please give me a break. I always call everyone back when they call me and if you feel the need to be childish and not answer or call me back dont blame anyone but your self. Im sorry. I am by no means trying to hurt anyones feelings, I just want some consideration. I just want people to think about Brian and I and not just Kailey. Again, I love the support everyone has for her but remember, Im her mother and Brian her father and we make the rules, we no longer follow your rules and everyone knows by now that I am tempermental; I can let you in or completely shut you out. And lastly, Kailey is NOT a play thing or a toy… she is MY daughter!!

We’re blessed

I just want to thank everyone who came by and showed their love and support to our newest addition. We are truly blessed.

Warning: Graphic Content Ahead

I just want everyone to know that I may mention a few things that some may not want to read but for those who are interested I will tell the latest. I had my 39 weeks pregnant appointment yesterday morning. After telling me that I was about 3 centimeters dialated, he said he was going to strip my membranes (for those who dont know what that is I suggest GOOGLE). It was a horrible experience!! Very painful for a couple of hours but it did help me finally feel a contraction which turned out to be exactly what every woman has told me– like a PMS cramp! So far all contractions have been very irregular, some not painful at all and some very intense. I prayed hard last night for Kailey to come… I know her and God have it all worked out about when shes going to show her beautiful face but Im becoming impatient!! : )  And I dont think Im the only one. Everyone is a little. So this morning I got up and … while I choose not to say, somthing happened (too graphic) that I believe is another push from my body saying its almost time. At least I hope.

I know today somewhere around lunch time Nick has an appopintment in Chapel Hill. Brian talked to me about this last night and unknowingly made me feel a little upset. None of us know if Kailey is coming today or not but if she decides to come today I DO NOT want Nick to feel bad, like perhaps it was his fault that he and Robin couldn’t be there. Nor you Robin. You have to take care of Nick and Id rather have a precious baby and a healthy brother (in-law) than anything else. If by chance you’re not there physically when it happens I know you’ll be praying for Kailey and I and I will have you in my heart. Although, I dont think it will happen that quickly, I love you both no matter what.

So for now, we wait. I hate being stuck in this house just waiting but theres nothing else I can really do. But I do have comfort in knowing that if she doesn’t come soon, Monday morning somewhere around 5 am I will be induced, so Ill offically be a mommy within the next few days!

And for those who are wondering, we will be birthing at Heritage Hospital in Tarboro.

11 days and counting

So with today being October 1, I have 11 days until my due date. Its hard to believe that its been almost 9 months (really 10 because its 40 weeks but…) Im very anxious. I went back to the doctor yesterday and he said I was dialted about a centimeter which is a start. Over the weekend I was in a frenzy… Cleaning everything!! I just had so much energy I didn’t know what to do with myself but today I feel crappy!! No other word to describe it. Im achey all over and so tired. I just dont feel well at all and I cant really describe how I feel just bad! Im not sure if it means anything of its just a combination of stress and so many things going on with little time to rest. People keep asking me question after question about being ready and excited but truthfully Im not excited. I am excited about being a mommy and seeing Kailey’s face for the first time but overall Im too exhausted to be excited, I just want her here in my arms! Im just tired. Brian tries to help, and it does but with my hormones so messed up his helping usually annoys me and makes me ill; which I hate to admit. Most women would love to have someone like him doing some of the wonderful things hes done for me and I just yell at him and take him for granted. I mean, he just traded in his car, his “baby”. The first car he owned, that he could call his and honestly say he earned becasue he was the one paying for it. Its gone, he watched “some old man” drive it away yesterday. He had to realize that there was no way a carseat was going to fit comfortably in his small 2 door car so he did the “adult” thing and traded it for a 4 door sedan. Granted, its an 08 model with over 50,000 less miles than his I know he loved that car and hes going miss it. I was so annoyed at the dealership because I felt Brian was being a picky baby over everything. The guys did a lot, helped us SOOOOO much in order to get us in this car and he was whining because it wasn’t what he wanted. I couldn’t stop and think about what he had just done long enough to appreciate it. Being almost 39 weeks pregnant has definitly taken its toll on me and Brian as well. So, any words of encouragement will be appreciated….

Shes ready…

I was back at the doctor today and everything is still good and Kailey is ready. She is in postition so now its just a matter of time. He did say its not likely to happen in the next week but Im happy knowing that shes almost ready. As the doctor said, “Pray for labor.”

18 and counting

I just want to take some time out to tell my mother and father in-law HAPPY ANNIVERSARY!!!! I hope theres many many more to come and they get better and better!!! I love you guys!!!

Todays Tears

Today would have been my Uncle Harveys 46th birthday. Many of you know he passed away in April due to cancer that the doctors had told him a year earlier was gone but it really wasn’t. I miss him a lot. I dont have much family thats been there for me through every birthday, christmas, and weekend bbqs like him and my aunt. They even drove down from Goldsboro the night of my graduation to watch me walk. And now hes gone. He wont be there for Kailey’s birth, my 21st birthday or Christmas this year and its still hard to realize until I look and dont see him. But I know hes watching over me and I wanted to tell him Happy Birthday and I love you and miss you. I wish he was here to meet Kailey but I know hes in a better place, not suffering. I love you Harvey.