Shes ready…

I was back at the doctor today and everything is still good and Kailey is ready. She is in postition so now its just a matter of time. He did say its not likely to happen in the next week but Im happy knowing that shes almost ready. As the doctor said, “Pray for labor.”

18 and counting

I just want to take some time out to tell my mother and father in-law HAPPY ANNIVERSARY!!!! I hope theres many many more to come and they get better and better!!! I love you guys!!!

Todays Tears

Today would have been my Uncle Harveys 46th birthday. Many of you know he passed away in April due to cancer that the doctors had told him a year earlier was gone but it really wasn’t. I miss him a lot. I dont have much family thats been there for me through every birthday, christmas, and weekend bbqs like him and my aunt. They even drove down from Goldsboro the night of my graduation to watch me walk. And now hes gone. He wont be there for Kailey’s birth, my 21st birthday or Christmas this year and its still hard to realize until I look and dont see him. But I know hes watching over me and I wanted to tell him Happy Birthday and I love you and miss you. I wish he was here to meet Kailey but I know hes in a better place, not suffering. I love you Harvey.

The month ahead

So… As of this past Sunday I hit the 9 month mark, 36 weeks. I had my latest doctor appointment today and so far theres no dialation but everything is going good. Its becoming so overwhelming for me just thinking that within the next month (hopefully), Brian and I will be parents. We will have a small piece of us, needing us and looking to us for love and care. But as amazing to me as it seems theres one thing I cant understand; most parents I know who seem to think they’re “giving me advice”, only focus on the negative effects of parenthood. No sleep, dirty diapers, crying, money….. Why dont parents talk about the good things, just the miracle of birth itself? I mean sure, Im not a parent but 3 days before my seventh birthday my little sister Holly was born. I remember what it was like with a baby. Brian has not one but two younger siblings and I love hearing him talk about helping take care of them. Also, when Holly was born my mom quit working to be home with her and she started babysitting so I’ve been around children of all types. Yes, I understand there are some very trying times with kids but why is that all parents talk about? I haven’t heard many people tell me how great it will be when she first says ma-ma or da-da or when she takes her first step or her first day of school. I know Brian and I have some hard times ahead but Im ready to take on this challange with him, Im ready for the tears, fears, and smiles. I love him and I think together we can be great parents and one day when someone I know gets pregnant Im going to tell them of all the wonderful things that come with parenthood and not try to scare the hell out of them. But back to the next month, we have almost everything ready. The crib is ready, her clothes are washed, and Brian and I are ready; now were just waiting on her. And I hope we dont have too much longer to wait.

The shower

We finally had our baby shower Saturday, September 6. It was GREAT!! From the very moment we started planning, it seemed like nothing was going right. But in the end the outcome was amazing. I have to send out a big thank you to everyone who came and especially everyone who helped. But most importantly to my mother-in-law Robin. I know you were stressing and worring about everything (like the cake) but everything was completely perfect to me!! You did an awesome job and I couldn’t have asked for a better day. So thank you and I love you. Kailey will be here soon to thank you as well!!

A Special Wish…

Special Birthday wishes to John!! A great father, friend, and soon-to-be granddad!! We love you John!!

From Brian, Heather, Kailey, and Peanut

A small change

Everyone told me I would change my mind about the name before she got here… I have some what but nothing too big. I have just changed the spelling. I saw it spelled like this recently and liked it better. Instead of Kayleigh it will be Kailey.

My rambling about the week, life, and love

So the latest on this week…

I went to the doctor Tuesday and his exact words were, “You cant get much better than perfect.” My weight is perfect, my measurements are perfect, now if only everyday life could be that great. Then yesterday, my battery died on my car while I was at ECC, 20 minutes before a doctors appointment in Rocky Mount, which they charge an $80 dollar fee for no shows or canceled appointments after 8:30 am. Thank goodness for my parents!! After getting the appointment time moved back an hour my mom came to take me to RM while my dad and Brian put in a borrowed battery to get my car home. But, in the time waiting for my parents to come I got everything straight with my financial aid, registered for classes, and got my books. And yes, I am taking classes this semester. My adviser who I’ve grown to love and respect is going to work with me and maternity leave. Granted, I only signed up for 2 classes and a co-op, its better than nothing. So that is the latest (on me). I dont have much to post about Brian. Hes good. He goes to work and comes home. However, he did call his grandmother Monday night. Anyone who knows Brian knows the tension theres been between us and the Walters side. It was good to TALK to her without the whole “grandma knows best” speech. It was really nice just to have a regular conversation. We also went to see his Uncle Buck. It was amazing to see his face lite up when he came to the door and saw Brian standing there. Im very proud of Brian, hes matured so much in the past 4 years. I couldn’t imagine my life without him. And now with Kayleigh on the way, hes been working so hard trying to make sure everything is just right for her when she gets here. Its amazing to me and no matter how many times I tell him Thank you and tell him just how much I appreciate everything hes done both for me and Kayleigh, it never seems to be enough. I just cant find the words to describe how I feel about him. I just know Im lucky to have him, and Kayleigh is too!

The OBX

So Saturday we finally took our first trip to the beach this year. It was awesome! We got to Nags Head about 9 that morning and the first thing I did was get in the water! Brian wouldn’t get in until after we had lunch. It was more challenging however, being 8 months pregnant trying to enjoy the raging waves without giving out after just a couple minutes. And, I did have somewhat of a scare… I had a wave break and pull me under, I hit the bottom of the ocean and was terrified that I might have hurt Kayleigh. I immediately jumped out and sat down for a while, caught my breath, and everything was fine. She decided to beat me up since I hit her. But overall Brian and I had a great time. It was nice to just get away for a day and not have any worries.

Waiting…

This morning at 9 am they were supposed to start on a heart catherization on Robin. They took her back at 7:30 am and we just found out that now, at 10; they haven’t even started. Everyone is already on pins and needles and to hear that we could have been back there talking to her, providing some type of comfort but wont because we thought they had already taken her back is almost heartbreaking to all of us. So right now we are just waiting. I believe John was told it would take about an hour to an hour and a half which to us is going to seem like years! So thats the latest. Will continue posting…